A Painful Illusion

I choke as you smother me.

I weep at the pain you inflict on me.

I can feel a lump building in my throat,

Breath seems to elude me.

Why are you so elusive? Why do you trouble me?

I have waited for you for so long,

I have longed for you forever.

Now you turn around and walk away

Why are you so elusive? Why do you trouble me?

I don't know if I should stay afloat or

Drown in the tide of my sorrow.

Once a joyous person, now a down-trodden loser

Whatever I do I will make sure, you will never trouble me.